These first few days after Christmas and New Years are good in so many ways for me. I love the feeling of putting the Christmas Tree and all the decorations away (as much as I love them) and giving my home a good scrubbing. Everything feels fresh and clean and uncluttered for the first time in several months. I begin fall decorating in August and go right into the Christmas season. Every year I enjoy the ritual of pulling out treasured items and finding just the right place for them. I equally enjoy putting everything away. January feels like a clean slate for me in all areas.
I've never been one to have a big party and celebrate on New Years Eve. I enjoy pulling out my journal after everyone has gone to bed that night and start writing. Sounds kind of lame and boring now that I see it in writing. However, I really enjoy writing about how the previous year went for me and what I would like to change. I guess I do make resolutions, but I think of them more in the terms of goals I'd like to accomplish throughout the coming year. 2011 was a challenging year. There were moments of happiness and joy but there was a lot of sadness around several deaths beginning with my Grandpa West in April, our good friend
Blake in May and our beloved dog
Gracie in October. My dear cousin
Denise fought her battle with breast cancer the whole of year with most of it in chemotherapy. She is doing great and I'm so proud of her!!
I feel like I lost focus for most of the year. The things I enjoy the most, writing and gardening, were put aside as I coped with a life of being too busy. We spent money we didn't have on things we didn't need and we're paying for it (literally) now. Overall, I look forward to the coming year and the HOPE that I see in it. I look forward to getting back to doing things I enjoy and being more aware of how we're spending our time and money.
I've been tossing around the thought of a defining
word for my life for 2012. I've been thinking about it for a few weeks and one word keeps popping into my head....
TRANSFORMATION! I'm just now starting to think about what that means for me. At first thought...I want to Transform my life into what I believe God has in store for me. I want to take more time to listen to the small, quiet, nudgings that I get from Him when I take the time. I don't know what Transformation will mean for me this coming year, but I'm looking forward to finding out.
Jackie